lullaby to my ears - hot and cold *katy perry* ><

testing out

everything seems to be going up and down

but that's life

bear it

take that challenge

-mw-

regret

somehow
i felt regret.
regret falling in love with you.
totally WRONG!
you're a faker
a lier!



however
thanks to accompany me
for the nights i felt lonely.
i had become more mature!

you find me when you need me ,
but when you dont, you threw me aside.
great.
i've fallen for someone who treat me invisible.

why am i loving you more than you do?

why am i putting so much effort in it any yet still falling apart?

why am i the one getting hurt most?

why am i feeling bad whenever we aint goin well?

why am i so afraid bout losing you?

why am i feeling so unsecured?

why do i hate the feeling of getting hurt?

why am i unhappy whenever u ignored me?

why do i feel so unimportant?

why do i get so pissed up easily ?

why do i get jealousy all round me?

why am i feeling like this eventhough there're just fren?

or are they more than frens?

why cant i stop thinking bout the worst?

why do i need your attention so much?

why am i acting so not like myself?

why is my soul trapped within your feeling?

why did i fall for you?

why did i let my heart out in the first place?

why am i such a bitch?

why why why?!

i just don wana get hurt.

i don wan anymore unhappy memories

i want my soul to be free.

i want the normal me back

i want just those happy moment.

i want us to be happy.

maybe we aren't ment for each other.

we are!

schooling day almost finish.
let's start focusing on cumning exam.

haiz.
friends.
exam is coming...
preparing?
studying?
stressing?
relaxing?

don't forget friends are always there.
let's study together
stay till the end.
GOOD LUCK EVERYONE!! <3

cH3nzxX

I'll stop, at least i wish i could,

get you out of my thoughts

and space in the corner of my heart

which belongs to you.

remember once -

the feeling of pain crippled,

not as pain as today

bonded by white lies,

all i could listen and believe,

to overcome my fear.

but dreams and hopes, it crashed

i fall, i cried, i bleed.

in despair.that was once, for long ago,

when you were in me.

harsh reality took over,

bubbled the dreams i used to have,sunk into darkness

thorn grew around. broken into pieces.

that was my fairy tale,.

one day, i'll grow, stand up strong,as i could,

not to get over by my emotions,which are far too weak for me.

a lesson learnt,

depriving me to fall again

and white lies it counts.

the silliness in me,
ringing and reminding me
from time to time
linking
those ruthful thoughts,
those irrelevant predictions,
those contradicts in me
together.
those were the one that sunk me into darkness,
falling apart - pieces by pieces
i tried to gain strength,
seeking every single trustworthy in you,
trying to solve all those circumstances that i had
after a few turns of struggle
and emotional conflicts
finally
i gave in to the words from you
they were the one that reassure me.
<3

A Special World

A special world for you and me

A special bond one cannot see

It wraps us up in its cocoon

And holds us fiercely in its womb.

Its fingers spread like fine spun gold

Gently nestling us to the fold

Like silken thread it holds us fast

Bonds like this are meant to last.

And though at times a thread may break

A new one forms in its wake

To bind us closer and keep us strong

In a special world, where we belong.

[ there is only one happeniss in life - to love and to be loved ]

chinese society's camp

it was..extremely fun! extremely high!! <3

heartx all committee members and campersss..

finally, SUCCESS.

lots of sweet memories and moments in this camp.

the scary

the funny

the highly

the stupidity

the crazy

owh yea! it's FUN!

photos baby!

all of us! peaceeee =)

wooohooo! the nice pic ever!
HIGH!

the last day..with camperss ^^

the mad gurlsss..committee :)

love you babiesss!!
*mwahx*

more photosss..
please visit www.idealess-gurl.blogspot.com

Frog Dissection ~

yay~yesterday was froggie day .. =) hehe
had frog dissection in sch *uhhh...actually its the club activity n the frog cost rm5*
hehe...we gotta PAY for the frog !!...=.=''
anyway..here how it goes :
1.nailed the frog
2.cut its skin
3.check its organ
4.saw the stomach,lungs,intestine,heart,fats,ovary*hehe..its a female frog*
5.cut out all the organ
6.organ display time =)
7.hehe...tried to cut out its brain but too bad the skull was TOO HARD T.T
8.ngekngek...this time we cut the frog skin *evil-nya* hehe

9.n..clean up the place...throw the frog away*pity froggie*...

10.the end. =p
it was my 1st time dissecting the frog n glad to had tht experience ^^

but the frog was pathethic T.T

the lung =)

uhm.....organ display time !!! =p
saw the black thing ? its the ovary ^^ too bad i didnt get to c the male's one XD

enjoy the clip =)

- Goth -

~ bday party ~

18 of july is roy song bday orhx...sue ,mayf n me are invited to attend his party at his hse...act im not rili wan to go...cuz many of bsd2 guys...n im not rili noe all of them..if go ther 4 sure will be veli bored..but i force by my 2 'ji mui'..so after chemistry tuition around 10.20 v reached ther...
so pai seh ler...coz v damn late la... den v three sit 2gether seldom chat la...
soon to be bored till die la...den roy cut cake lo...is banana chocolate cake...bought by jin yen,sue,mayf,me,chutipond,zhe yen n many la...v share la...
after tat v keng kai wif leng lui jin yen lo...den v go visit roy's room...
haha...v curi-curi open roy's bday present...gt 2 ppl giv 10 ringgit angpow orhx...
they put all 1 buck inside so look lik a big amount...ahha
den v 3 take pic wif jin yen,zhe yen n also their sis... quite fun la...
den v go bac at 12.30 smth ...

Love although dim will never fade

My forlorn heart still flutters-as it still remains in one piece;

awaiting your arrival to captivate itand love me the way I love you.

profound feelings I encompassfor you (a person with such a beautiful soul),

are complicating my every thought, my every wish,as they continue to grow stronger than ever before.

Constantly being told to let the feelings dissolve-by those who I confide in, is becoming too much to take.

I've tried so hard to let things fade in the past,but have found out that it doesn't last long.

Letting these feelings fade away will break my heart, for the thought of you would no longer linger in my mind.

I refuse to let this happen to me,so I will continue to hold on to these genuine feelings.

[ goth ]

emotional !

nowadays,
i'm quite emotional!
forgive me if i scolded you.
forgive me if i fly into temper.
forgive me if i did anything that make you unhappy!

i'm busy with lotsa stuff!
and i hope i'll settle it as fast as possible!
thanks much guys!
with heartx~ <3

im so unhappy now !! =(


=X

Sri Bintang Utara-the champion for cheer 08 =)

it was fascinating !

[ Goth ]

- CheeR 08 - <3
i am again - went to cheer today * its my 1st time...everything was new to me*
we reached the stadium at bout 8? i guess...didnt really notice the time... it was REALLY packed ! n hot ~ =.= we couldn't find a perfect place to sit ~ shifted here n there =.=
after waiting for quite a moment...it finally started..**yay~relief*
the performances were really stunning. *er..some only* hehe anyway..i did enjoy myself..kekez..nice meeting every1 frm bsd again =) *it've been a long time since we met
to those who participated in cheer ~ do keep up the good work =) all the best girls =) hehe~SNAP XD
say cheese =)
yay~ me - silky Girl XD
^^ l3oNgZ' hat ^^

- Goth-

[[::Gotong-Royong::]]

gee...woke up at 7 today...
went to sch for gotong-royong* i painted my class* =)
keke...now its peach colour !! nice *although i prefer lavender (the colour for d girls toilet >.<) uhm...actually i dun feel like goin to sch..bt for the SAKE for moral kerja amal - i HAD to ! T.T
anyway..it was kindda fun painting the class.. hehe.. hard work + enjoyment
me n ahBong snap lots pic..hehe...snap those who were too BZ painting *funny post though~
then we went to taman science..snap some picz there too ***its for moral..duh~***
snap snap snap...n we took a break...sat on the class table - chattinG ~ while the others still painting...(rajin betul^^) hehe =p

enjoy ~
standing on the table painting the wall >.< taman science
Gardening~
my class ~ hehe *the science lab =.=''
dirty pants after painting T.T

[[Goth]]

♥ Love ♥

i just
love u
stupidly!